Random Thoughts On A Sunday Night

Yet another weekend has passed me by just like that. I think I must have spent half my Sunday catching up on my sleep and the rest playing on my Football Manager 2008 game.

FM2008 is the reincarnation of the former Championship Manager, coined CM for short, and it was my favourite game back in my schooling days. It was out of sheer boredom many Sundays ago that I popped out to buy the game because I wanted to kill time. Now, I have since devoted precious hours of my Sunday managing my football team, signing players, organising tactics, playing matches, blah blah blah... Pretty meaningless, but nevertheless enjoyable.

I made my comeback on Sat after two weeks of absence and I was definitely somewhat rusty. Missed the sort of sharpness that I am accustomed to from conducting weekday classes as well.

Did a mix for my morning class, and BC34 for my afternoon class as I was too busy to mix the tracks. Then after my class, there was a revelation that Xavier who covered my afternoon class, did BC34 for two weeks in a row. The poor members must have been bored to bits doing the same thing three weeks in a row. Some have requested for me to change the tracks next week, which I definitely will. Not my style to do the same thing, even if it's two different classes on a same day.

During the second class, I got high during T8 - Believe In Me. This has always been one of the tracks that has got me going, physically, mentally and emotionally. Choreography is easy, but it's so much harder not to just coast through that track. I don't know why, but I just love this track to bits.

Work has taken its toll on me. I'm feeling more tired now, even though I only conduct 2 classes a week compared to 5 last time. But there are no complaints about work, I like my boss, my teammates, my working environment. My current job is not as glamourous as my previous - I get scolded all the time by external parties, but this job certainly allows me a more comfortable lifestyle and more flexibility to pursue my other indulgences such as travelling and going for filmings/workshops.

Interestingly, in spite of the global market downturn, I've been contacted by a couple of headhunters sounding me out for roles similar to what I did in the past. A more glamourous role, frequent work travel and shorter hours, with the odd midnights for projects. There was a fleeting moment where I thought if I should consider it.

Deja vu all over again. A job I like, colleagues that I like, working culture that I like, only that 2.5 years ago, I made the mistake of quitting and put myself into misery.

Even till today, I still regret the decision I made back in Jan 2006. I'll willingly trade all my LM experiences and achievements if I could go back to the past.

I haven't changed since then. Just become slightly more nonchalant. Or should I say, resigned?