Thank You

It's my birthday! And everything's looking a blast.

First up, waking up at 2:45am to watch Spain beat Germany 1-0 in the Euro 2008 final was well worth it. I've always been a Spain supporter as I support FC Barcelona... me no glory hunter here.

Work is starting to be challenging. I start running numbers on my big day and it's time to begin stressing my ass out.

Lunch with Ms Scorpio was fantastic. During training, we somehow clicked and hanged out together, it was only later did I know that she was a Scorpio. What a coincidence. Nobody in my training would have guessed that I would get along so well with her!

A big thank you to Ms Lynn for coming all the way to give me a birthday treat at Outback today. It was a lovely dinner and the conversation we had was priceless. We talked so much today, on gym stuff, on friendships and fortune telling...

Fortune teller was freakingly accurate for me. When she said that I would be travelling in July, I was like 'No way!' considering I've just finished training and would be starting on my job soon.

But when Mr Scorpio asked me to join him for a trip, I couldn't say no. And the best thing was my boss ok-ed my leave. And even if I didn't go for this trip, my department is going away for an off-site which means I'll be out of the country anyway. Scary!

The only pity is I couldn't be spending my birthday with my twin brother and the rest of my training mates who are still stuck in training.

Many thanks to all those friends and even those readers of this blog for your well wishes. It's very much appreciated, even if I may not know some of you.

On a slightly dampening note, during today's conversation with Lynn, we touched on lost friendships and betrayals. Unfortunately, I've been at the receiving end of such brutal treatments.

One lost for good.

One just returned from 4 years of overseas study and sent an email to apologise. Unfortunately, I've no time for that and have no wish to be reminded of an unpleasant past. I should have sent an reply to remove any lingering hopes of reconciliation, but seriously I can't be bothered anymore. It's not that I'm petty, I did spend several nights lying on the bed before sleep wondering if I should reply.

Then there's another one, whose sister is having her wedding dinner tonight. I treated her like my own sister, but once again I have no capacity to forgive the elder sibling and I rejected the invitation.

Heartless I am not, but it is the pain from all these betrayals of people close to me that hurts the most. A Cancerian's weakness is the heart, and it is in my best interests to just chuck all these failed friendships away than to reminded of the unhappy past.

I don't forgive. But even if I forgive, I won't forget.