Welcome April

It's been such a long time since I welcomed the start of the month. All slates wiped clean, everything resets to zero and we're all ready to go again.

Last day(s) of the month are always crazy days for me. The tension has been building up for quite a while and I'm so glad we're out of it. I've been telling myself that I really needed to get thru these 2 difficult months (Feb/Mar). What more, today was the last day of the quarter, so it was madness.

I have not gotten a proper break/holiday since end Jan (CNY). And when I say break, I don't mean the kind where you go overseas and walk around non-stop with no rest. That was what my HK trip in Feb was all about, walking around non-stop and I felt totally exhausted when I returned.

It's very difficult for anyone to step in my shoes to understand the kind of pressure and stress I go thru at work every single day. I worry about my own business targets, I worry about my job, I worry about market levels, I worry about positions for other people, and yet I don't worry about my own positions. Now I have a baby to worry about.

Sometimes when I hear traders earning alot of money, I don't begrudge them because I can just imagine the tremendous stress they go through. I'm not a trader, I don't earn that kind of moolah, but I'm not complaining because I'm seriously not sure if I can withstand that level of stress.

All these are reasons why I love BC so much. It's the only programme for me where I can unleash all my frustrations and relieve all my stress. It's quite difficult to do BA or BJ without a smile on your face. Seriously, how can anyone smile at the end of a rotten day at work when markets go against you and you get screwed by your clients. Not one, not two, but many many!

One reason why I look forward to Apr - two breaks. First up, I'll be going to BKK with my colleagues on the Good Friday weekend. My team has been talking about going for holidays but we always have to stagger our leave to make sure we've covered. It is so rare that we have a PH on Fri where many of us can take leave together. It was rather expensive because we booked late. This time round, I'm definitely going to chill out and just relax.

I'll actually be flying out later than the rest because I committed myself to a 2hr BC class on Good Friday at Parkway. I could have turned down the class, but I thought I wanted to do the class then take a night flight out. Dedications welcome (pls either sms me or leave me a msg at LM or here) but restricted to BC21-39. I plan to do an 'old school' class sometime soon, so leave it for that.

My second trip, needless to say - Auckland. This is the holiday that I'm so so so looking forward to. NZ is really my idea of a holiday. The pace there is much slower, I get positive vibes when I'm there, I don't need sightseeing, I'd rather stay in a hotel/apt, and go gym or casino whenever I feel like it.

Just checked my mileage, I've got enough miles to go for 2 more SIN-AKL return trips, so I don't think Apr will be my last time, subject to leave.

At the moment, I think I could do with a break.