Too Many Things, Too Little Time

Just back from HK over the weekend, and I'm super duper tired right now. For a start, I did miss my 'me' time, and being in HK with around 40 people I know, that hardly constitutes 'me' time. I usually catch up on sleep during weekends so I'm a little deprived right now.

I should be sleeping now, but blogging is just therapeutic, so I just want to write my thoughts away. It's moments like these when I feel there's too many things and too little time.

Just a little NZ trip had me running around, settling on air tix/hotel bookings and I haven't even applied for leave yet.

Not to mention the little planned BKK getaway for the quarterly in Feb/Mar. Leave was all approved but waiting for all the 'erm i'm interested but let me think about it' really spoilt everything. Missed the cutoff date, and I haven't ordered my DVD packs yet so everything's in a mess. I can deal with mess of the physical kind, my room and office desk is a complete mess but I hate my life being in a mess. Unfortunately there's too many such things happening. And worst of all, this gym stuff is just a supplementary thing! It's not supposed to cause so much mayhem!

Now I've decided to call the whole thing off cos I may need to cancel my leave (sian 1/2) and also because my colleagues are thinking of BKK getaway during Good Friday weekend too.

In a way I am kinda glad I don't teach on Sundays. I do enjoy taking the class (thanks everyone who came and supported me that early on a Sunday morning, I appreciated it) but I do need the time to do my own things.

There's a big ticket item I'm looking at and I haven't even had the time to go look for it. At least I need to spend some time looking at it before I decide if I want to take the plunge. There are stocks I want to buy but I haven't had the time to look. Got people asking me to joint invest property, but I haven't had the time.

I've cut down on weekdays gym totally except for Monday, and I wonder where the rest of my weekdays go. Catching up on US markets in the late evenings, as if I haven't been looking at markets enough during the day. I'm fortunate enough to have a good memory BC for choreo so I don't have to spend that much time revising on my BC tracks for my weekend classes. That saves me a lot of time. Can't imagine having to spend time learning all that choreo.

In my relentless pursuit for career progression and monetary rewards, I sometimes wonder what I have compromised. Have I sacrificed time with people, with people I genuinely care about? Have I become a corporate slave?

I wish I had more time. And more sleep.